So I had this thought shortly after TJ died that sort of scared me. I thought gosh, the books I choose now might push me this way or that. This scared me because I thought wow, I could choose wrong. What if I choose wrong?
I did choose wrong. Like the last ten books worth of wrong. But hey, I’m only human right? So the latest book, really a wrong choice, The Happiness Project, got me thinking more about myself and my happiness. It seems as though most of what I have read about grief and happiness and self-help and health frankly all falls back on me, me, me. And to be honest, I began falling for it. I really started to believe that I ought to undertake a “happiness project” so that I could work more on making “me” feel great. And then I picked up another book I hadn’t read in a while. No, not that one. I’m not there yet. I will be. He’s waiting. No, I picked up this book I received years ago as a gift, The Purpose Driven Life. Did I finally make the right choice?
I don’t know. Maybe I chose wrong, maybe I chose right. To be completely honest, I feel less like I know anything most days than like I’m making any progress. But, I’m not gonna give up. A purpose driven life? Hmmm…that kind of life may not always be a life filled with happiness, or clean cut, Container Store, organic answers; and just maybe, that’s the point.
I love you little guy! Let your faith be bigger than your fears.
I did choose wrong. Like the last ten books worth of wrong. But hey, I’m only human right? So the latest book, really a wrong choice, The Happiness Project, got me thinking more about myself and my happiness. It seems as though most of what I have read about grief and happiness and self-help and health frankly all falls back on me, me, me. And to be honest, I began falling for it. I really started to believe that I ought to undertake a “happiness project” so that I could work more on making “me” feel great. And then I picked up another book I hadn’t read in a while. No, not that one. I’m not there yet. I will be. He’s waiting. No, I picked up this book I received years ago as a gift, The Purpose Driven Life. Did I finally make the right choice?
I don’t know. Maybe I chose wrong, maybe I chose right. To be completely honest, I feel less like I know anything most days than like I’m making any progress. But, I’m not gonna give up. A purpose driven life? Hmmm…that kind of life may not always be a life filled with happiness, or clean cut, Container Store, organic answers; and just maybe, that’s the point.
I love you little guy! Let your faith be bigger than your fears.